'Tis the start of a New Year....

 This will be a short note... This past year we have lost family (my Aunt Esther) we have lost celebrities young and old, legends and history makers. But with the sad comes the new and I am sure there are babies being born everywhere to take the place of the lost. So for this New Years just keep in mind of everyone near, far or gone. Hope everyone has good intentions for this new Year and keep to them. Don't set resolutions that truly wont be met  but set the ones that make you a better person for yourself and to influence those around to also be better. So to all those that read my blog have  a Happy New Years... Till next year ....

Merry Christmas vs Happy Holidays.......

   Here is a short thought about both saying Merry Christmas vs Happy Holidays. Now I understand the need to be politically correct but really there is no reason. I rather have someone wish me a Merry Christmas because guess what ITS CHRISTMAS!!! Happy Holidays? Whats that, I will tell you its an easier way for people to pretend to be nice. The only reason people say that now is for those handful of people that complain to be insulted by Christmas. Why? Do people who celebrate Christmas get insulted by Hanukkah, or Kwanzaa or which other holiday anyone may celebrate. Granted the other reason for saying Happy Holidays would be at the beginning of the seasons like if your not going to be seeing the person till after the holidays then yeah its acceptable to say Happy Holidays it would include Thanksgiving on till after the New Years. Speaking for myself I rather be told Merry Christmas specially after the start of December. Here is another little tid-bit that many different people do not know about. The actual end of Christmas season isn't until January 6th. If you don't know why that is when the three Magi presented baby Jesus with his gifts of gold, murr and frankincense. The song twelve days of Christmas is pretty much tell you this, from the 25th of December to the 6th of January. You don't believe me then count the days!! Anyways I just wanted to vent about the whole Happy Holidays thing, maybe I am old fashion or maybe just OLD but all day every-time I rather be wished a Merry Christmas...... So to all of you around the world I wish you a Merry Christmas, or Happy Kwanzaa or Happy Hanukkah..... and if your an Atheist then have an awesome day!!! Till Next time my dear readers....

The Grumps at Christmas.....

    It the season of Christmas, meaning we pull out our Christmas sweaters, music and decorations. I totally love this time of year, the only thing that gets annoying  for one is the grumps that come out this season. I will admit to you that I have one of those grumps in my household. I think that every family has a grump, maybe your grump is like mine they complain but at the same time LOVE the holidays. I also have noticed that most grumps are men. I am not being sexist, if you look around your family you will see the men are not as smiley as the women. If they are anything like my father they complain when shopping is being done or when food is being prepared or when Christmas music is being played. Granted my father is not always like this he just worries about spending money, or having leftover. You see my father comes from South America and he is just not used to all the Christmas hype. Now I am not saying he is like this all the time but sometimes he can not help himself even tho he has been in this country for over 30 plus years, I guess he still isn't used to the extravagance of the season. The thing that makes me laugh about my dad is that he complains one minute and the next minute he loves it, he loves the food, the decorations and when he gets presents. You can't tell me you don't have a family member like this I believe everyone does. Christmas is fun for all of us and I think the grumps in our lives may secretly love Christmas to maybe even more then the rest of us nut cases. I wish everyone a Merry Christmas... Until the next time......

Halloween

     Halloween is a fun holiday, we get to dress up in disguises including makeup, and to top it all off we get candy. I know Halloween is not very well understood nor is it celebrated in every part of the world. I was talking to one of my cousins from South America, when she was explaining to me how they were using this American holiday as a reason to party and dress up. Then she proceeded to tell me how over there they were being taught that Halloween was something evil and satanistic. Obviously they don't know where this holiday comes from or the meaning of it. So I figure I would write this blog today to explain or dare I say educate some people on the meaning and actual history of Halloween. 

    First of all Halloween in the 31st of October it is the Eve of All Hallows Day, plus the actual meaning of Halloween is Holy Evening. Bet a lot of you didn't know that one huh? Halloween is also based on old Christian beliefs with some pagan beliefs, but then Christianity and Pagans are close in relation. In case you take this to heart and want to comment rudely and meanly let me elaborate, Pagan religion is not about devil worship it is about unity, positivity, also the begining of Harvest, and the belief in afterlife (heaven). Christianity is unity, heaven and positive outlook in life. Without mentioning the belief in one God, some Pagans also believe in God but then they also believe in mother earth, nature and all our surroundings. (of course this is just a rough explanation) So back to what I was saying, the belief of Halloween is that the souls that have past have a chance to come visit on all Hallows Eve so they can go past to the other side by All Souls Day which is the first of November. The reason we dress up on Halloween is kind of like camouflage for the living, the idea is that if the dead can walk among us then we can blend in with our costumes. Halloween has nothing to do with demons or the devil its a fun day and over all there are also beliefs that it is a day of luck and to some good harvest season. 

      So that is a quick review of what Halloween really is now there is a lot more I can say but I think I have taken enough of your time on this subject. If you want to know more then grab a history book check out the internet and you will see that I may not have explained it all but the just is in this blog... Till the next time...

Karma hits back in many ways....

Karma always comes back into many different ways, it can come back in our children, it can also come back on its own which as a vengeful reminder of what we did in the past. Now with that said I am and going to tell you a story of my Niece, who once tortured me with that blushing dinosaur named Barney.  You may think why would Barney be torture let me tell you, on one summer day I am was asked to babysit. I was glad to babysit at first; when I got to my aunts house everything was fine, then my niece asked if she could watch Barney it was perfectly fine with me. When Barney finished I was set to play a game with her or coloring anything. Then she opens my aunts cabinet it was full of Barney, she pulls out another video and watch it she then proceeds to watch Barney again, and again. Since I was left with instructions to let her do what she wishes, I spent an entire day watching Barney the purple dinosaur. I have never forgotten this, now my Niece is in her 20's and has two children of her own, the story of karma is as follows, her daughter is driving my niece crazy watching Dora the Explorer. I should feel sorry for her but at least now she understands what I went through with the Barney. I am not saying that my niece was a horror as a child she's had her issues and I warned her that eventually  her children will most likely be exactly like her. I didn't use it as a curse but the older I got the more I learned that children take after their parents not all of them are like their parents but some, others take after whom they've been raised by, who they see as parents, so on and so forth. But in my nieces case he she was raised by her grandparents and she still was a little brat now she knows what we all went through with her. Of course my niece is also still learning to be a mom but hey with all the bumps and bruises she will get there, no one really knows how to be a mom until you get there, whether it be your own child, or if your raising  nieces and nephews even foster children, as soon as you have a child in your care you become a parent. Believe me it is an easy but it's worth it. Until the next time.

Its been a while....

     It has been a while since I last wrote, I believe it was before my birthday in August. So let me start with telling you what I first did for my birthday, I decided to try something new, I went to a racetrack to watch horses run, it was interesting and good family time. After that in September I tried to help at my boys school, its a bit difficult since I have been hurting alot lately, but it does not stop me I still go and do what I can. One thing I did help with that was fun was go to the fair as a chaperon. My boy actually enjoys when I go to school I thought that the older he got the more he wouldn't want to be seen with me so far that is not the case, and I hope that doesn't ever change.
       Sadly to say my doctor still doesn't know what is wrong with my tendons and nerves all he says is "you'll have to live with it". To bad he doesn't know how stubborn I am, I will get this pain under control and my hands back to normal. I have another appointment to go to but the doctor already told me that he wants to operate after whatever the neurologists says. If the doctor operates there will be no guarantee if it'll work or not, he also said it would get worse. I don't know about you but I don't want to take that chance right now I may be in pain, I have tremors, swelling, some days I can't use my hands but there are some days I can use them even if it's for just a little bit. So we will see what will unravel with that problem.
        Well an update about my next book, I have big time writer's block, which means it's been a couple of months since I was was able to write. for some reason I haven't been able to think about the next chapter of my upcoming book, eventually I figure the less I stare at the screen the more ideas will come. So far I have had a few ideas but not enough.
         This month October is the anniversary of two family members that have sadly passed away, it's been quite a while but they are still in our hearts and memory. October 16 is the anniversary of Aunt Francis, October 19 is the anniversary of my godmother/cousin Rachel. Both were wonderful, loving women and we are lucky that they are looking down on us from heaven.
          I will try not to take so long for my next blog. Hope all the readers out there haven't forgotten about me yet. Until the next time.

Home Movies

My birthday is a few days away, I guess it's making a little family sick especially since I know my grandmother is being thrown  a big birthday party this weekend. It made me sad, not only because it's being held on my birthday but because somehow I remember when we both used to get combined birthday parties. My dad pulled out some old home movies a lot of the movies were of our family parties, which I will have to admit we had a lot of and I'm not just talking 10 people I'm talking over 25 all of whom was mainly family. Some of you may not know but Latino families are huge and will find any excuse to make a party. Maybe that is why I feel like I am missing out, I guess oddly enough this year I feel the distance between California and New Mexico little more than other years. I guess the older I get the more sentimental I feel and truly I wouldn't mind seeing my extended family again. Watching all those people on the video makes me wonder how all those aunts, uncles, cousins, are all doing; knowing that most are now married with children living  their own lines not once  giving a passing thought to me.  Those home videos also brought tears to my eyes when I saw family members that are no longer with us, my great-grandmother, my great aunts, great uncles, uncles, aunts, people that I have learned a lot from, whom I will never forget and I have great memories of. I also miss those days where I wasn't forgotten. I don't think I have cried as much as I have these days watching these home videos and remembering  those carefree days of fun and love of a big, loud, food loving family. Love to all of you out there have a great week.   Till the next time.....

Random

It's been a while since I have written, the summer was nice and quick. Between the end of summer sports the beginning of fall sports and the beginning of school I have been somewhat busy, and that's to say the least. With everything going on at once all I can say is WOW! To add to my craziness this wonderful month bring the best holiday EVER the day of my birth!! Ok so its not a real holiday but to me it is, you would think after a certain age I wouldn't want to be reminded of my impending dome to senior-citizenship. But who the hell cares, I still love the idea of having a day just dedicated to me. haha I maybe a bit odd but I am me and loving it. So what else can I report oh after my nice hiatus this summer from writing I am glad to announce that I am getting back to writing my second book. Sometimes I wonder who has read my first book but then do I really want to know what they thought? Well till the next time we shall see... have a good one!

HS Reunion......

   So I have been thinking, don't worry I didn't hurt myself doing so! haha I don't know about all of you out there is the world, and I don't know if everyone has reunions at there school, but I was kinda looking forward to mine. I graduated in 1996 and I figured that the person that was designated to get the ball rolling on the 5 yrs reunion would do something, its 17 years later. Granted that my old friends may not want to see me but I would like to know what everyone is up too. I am not the person I thought I would be in high school that's for sure but its not like I didn't try but I don't think my life is all that bad, I raised a good boy, I worked at a bank till I got hurt and I got a book published. I know a lot of people from my high school have done exactly what they headed out to do and that's awesome I would like to hear about it and I think getting together and being crazy would be fun specially for a lot of us who don't have grown up time. So my thought is maybe I should start the ball the only thing is that I am not that good with organizing things, but then there is a first time for everything. The other thing that is a bit difficult is that I live in New Mexico and I graduated from Santa Paula High in California. Anyways that is my thoughts for today we shall see what I decide. Thank you reading my ramblings. Be safe all....

Boy Bands of the 90's

       So this post will probably make some of you mad, some of you laugh, and others just not want to read on but that's OK because I want to talk about this. Well just so you know I am a child of the 90's so boy bands were my thing and I will admit it to you I STILL DO like them alot... A friend recently went to a New Kids on the Block concert called the Package Tour. Well I started looking at her videos and pictures and I became a bit nostalgic and gitty like a teenager. Sad to say I found myself on you tube looking at old and new videos of NKOTB then I realized that the "Package Tour" was full of great acts all which I loved. 98 Degrees, and Boys II Men. If they would have added Backstreet Boys, N'Sync OMG it would have been massive... I don't really go to concerts but I love music so needless to say I probably know most of the words to the songs of these for-mentioned bands. I know the NKOTB were out of the lime light for many years and I was always a secret fan, well maybe not to secret, but I didn't care much what others thought. But when I was looking at the videos from the past and the videos from the concert I realized that Jordan Knight still makes me swoon. Don't laugh its true! A lot of you know that I am a HUGE Elvis Presley fan,  since the King of Rock n Roll is dead, the only other person that can get me all weak in the knees is Jordan Knight. So I have come to the conclusion that I have not out grown NKOTB. Watching all these videos made me want to hear all the cd's and tapes (yes I said tapes) I have hidden under my bed. It also made me realize that the music now a days is not as uplifting and positive as it used to be. I listen to a lot of different type of music lately I have been listening to country a little more it just seems that it is a lot more cleaner then some others, granted there are some artist out there that make great positive music and I do not be-little their work at all. I guess just listening to the old music took me back to those innocent days when music gave you that mushy feeling in the pit of your stomach, the days when falling in love was made to seem so simple and painless. The days when us girls had posters plastered on our walls of all the gorgeous guys in music or on screen. Since I kind of went off script, my point is NKOTB  has still got it they are older but can still make every women between the ages of 33-40 swoon and squeal like teenagers. Pretty much like Smokey Robinson does for women my mother's age. You men out there maybe rolling your eyes, shaking your heads and praying it doesn't start all over again. If you don't know the craze that NKOTB caused back then let me give you a little notion it was kind of like back in the 50's with the Beatles and Elvis Presley. Women oogled over the boys, men gritted there teeth watching their girlfriends, sisters, any female they knew fall over themselves just for Donny, Danny, Joey, Jonathan, and Jordan. I guess the good thing is that the men have grown up and us women are still girls at heart swooning over these very talented and HOT guys. Well this girl is going back on you tube for some more music videos don't judge me and if you do I frankly don't care. Hope you all have a good one .. Until the next time....


           



     

Different languages…

    I know it's been a while since I have blogged, to be sincere this summer has me pretty busy, between swim team, karate, and other various things. I guess you can just imagine. Back to the point, I was recently talking to someone about learning English, this immediately made me think about learning other languages. I have taught a few people to speak English what I learned was that if you make myself listen to the language your learning it helps. For example my cousin came from Peru, she wanted to learn English and took some classes sadly the classes, after a few weeks, did nothing for her, so we then suggested that she listen to radio and watch movies in English, she ended up learning in a few month almost perfect English. She now speaks Spanish, English and French. So my thought is if a person really wants to learn to speak English them why not forget the novellas and watch soap operas forget peliculas and watch movies, same with radio English songs make it easier to learn the language. Now if you are thinking it only work for English you are mistaken the other side of my family are all American with Latin/native descendants.  Most of my cousins don't speak Spanish, after one of my male cousins got married he decided he had to learn to speak Spanish, so he made himself watch and get into an actual novella, now he speak Spanish well not perfect but well enough to understand and answer. So I don't really understand why people say it is difficult to learn, I am making the effort to learn a new language this summer and also at the same time brushing up on my French. The thing I am learning which is possibly the most confusing about these languages is that in Italian there is a mixture of French, English and Spanish. So I'm guessing you are thinking that it may end up being easier for me since I know those languages. Well I got news for you!! IT"S NOT! It just occurred to me the other day while I was studying Italian, that it was going to be confusing, then I tried using what I learned to answer my father what came out of my mouth was Italian/French... I thought this was hilarious, then I started thinking about other languages German, Russian, Portuguese, Polish, Chinese, so on and so forth. I thought those must me  hard to learn specially the ones with the harsh tones. Then I was thinking what about the Native American languages the ones that are not being taught that much anymore, for example my family as you know is Peruvian so the Native (Incas) language there is Quechua (there are various forms of course), this language for I know for sure is not being taught nor learned very much anymore it is on its way to being a dead language. Me, of course, want to learn Quechua very badly but I can not find a book or tapes, you tube has some videos but not very helpful, so what I do is try to pick my grandmother's brain about Quechua, so far I know a few sentences but I get confused on which is what ... haha     But it is a start!!! So to all those out there who say they cannot learn this is not true anyone can learn anything with the right push and confidence in yourself.  Till the next blog... A Presto! Hasta la Proxima! Jusqu'à le prochain!



                                                     

                                                                           

Fear...

  Well I was talking to someone that told me something, of course no names, but she got me to thinking. Fear is a normal word when talking about scary things like werewolves, vampires, zombies, mummies, Freddy Kruger, the chainsaw guy, taxes, IRS etc... I'm going to safely say that you all get my point. So back to what I was about to say, when the word fear comes up in conversation about a persons relationship, it is not a very good word it actually turns into a curse. When a person starts to fear the person they are with then, sorry to say, your relationship maybe doomed. I am sure there could be a few ways to save it but in my opinion and experience it doesn't work out. You see once you start seeing your significant other as someone to fear then how can you trust them again? I figure fear is a way that your sub-conscience tells you or shall I say warns you of the things that may come. Just think about it, you have seen those movies where the woman makes excuses for the man on why she fears him. Well doesn't she still keep getting beat after the fear hits, of course she doe. But its not only that its also words people say that words don't hurt well I am here to tell you sometimes words are worse then anything else. Because words make a person start to believe what is being said about them for example no one has the right to call you worthless, a loser, stupid, make you feel bad or anything negative think about it this way. GOD wouldn't have put you here if he knew you were not meant to be, GOD makes no mistake you are here because you have a reason to exist! So for the conclusion I would like to say that you need to make your own decisions and you need to think about what is right for you and yours. May you all be safe and do not fear the one you love. God loves you no matter what anyone else tells you, you are worth it after all GOD put you here so live your way and happy..... Blessed to you all....

It's been a while....

  I know it has been a while since I have written, I have not been feeling well not that it is an excuse but I am not in much of a good mood when my tendons and nerves are all acting up and giving much hated pain. So in a pinch this month was also very busy for me, besides the normal mother's day and my mom's birthday it was also the last month of school for my boy. I would go and try to help the teacher with the kids abit (also probably why I have been in pain non-stop ) but I have to admit it was fun. My boys little friends liked me a lot  I would get hugs and they all called me Tia (which means Aunt). The field trips were also much fun we walked to the park while the kids picked up trash to help the community then after had a picnic. Then of course was the fun day at school which is a obstacle course the kids participate in and a few us parents also participated in again super fun. Now that leads to today which I am relaxing and trying to get myself feeling better before I start my Summer School of Me started, in case you don't understand I teach my boy during summer the things that I believe the school is not teaching him for example script writing and also helping him get better at his math and reading I don't want him to forget everything he learned this year.Well I do hope everyone out there in the world has had a good May. I shall write a bit more often this summer. TTFN..

Mother's Day....

           Roses are Red, Violets are Blue to all the mother's out there this day is for you!

     I know that technically I am not a mother for I have never given birth, but I am a mother of what we say in Spanish 'criansa' which means mother of nurture (or of raising). My little one made me a wonderful poem with a cupcake on it, from school. Of course both my mother and I have raised him so as we like to say he is lucky he has two mama's. Well my point for this blog is to wish everyone that is or has raised kids a happy mother's day. A mother isn't just the woman who gave birth to you its the person who loved and nurtured you into the person you are today. The one that pushes you, punishes you, loves you, makes you clean your room, makes you do chores, kisses and hugs you when your hurt or down, praises you when you do good and do your best,  the one that reads-sings-talks-plays with you, and the one that stands by you no mater what. A mother will never leave you nor hurt you she won't even hold it against you when you get mad and say mean things to her. If you are a mother like this or know a mother like this then appreciate her and be proud of her and most of all if you are this person be proud of yourself for your kids will soon find out how lucky they are. May God Bless all the Mother's, Grandmother's, Great-Grandmother's and those Aunties (that are like mother's)....... Everyone have a good Mother's Day... Till the next time...


      

P.M.S

       Please Make-it STOP!!! Yeah that's right today I am going to discuss the dreaded CURSE. Now if you are a woman they you may or may not know what I am talking about, if you a man you may NOT want to know. So ladies I know that everyone has different symptoms of the curse so I am going to share mine not that I am special or anything but I honestly think that they are weird. If I am wrong let me know. I woke this morning with bad cramps (normal right), but then my legs were also hurting and my lower back so bad I swear I felt like I was 100 years old. Does anyone else get doubling pain I mean really WHY does this have to happen? I blame Eve I think that because she made the error in judgement to bite that dang apple mother nature and God decided to punish us all. Ok maybe she deserved it but do we?? Maybe I am just being silly, actually I know I'm being silly but today I feel like complaining and that is what I am doing. So to end this blog  I would like to once again say P.M.S = Please Make-it Stop!!! Thank you and may all you that are on the curse get some Midol its great stuff...  haha

Things people say..........

     I am sure someone out there has a family members that make you feel kinda bad. Yeah I have a couple, the funny thing is that they don't see it, they think they are helping. But why don't they see that when they are saying things about oh weight, height, looks, life, knowledge, pretty much everything it's not being helpful but hurtful. I had  someone whom will remain nameless tell me some disturbing things, for example I have been raising my nephew I know I am not his biological mother and he knows this as well, yet he respects me and sees me as a mother well 'some' say that I have no idea what it is to raise a child of my own. Wait I have been raising my nephew so uhh YES I do know, but of course I will not talk back I just stay quiet. Then there was another situation as you may know I ran a family business for a while, well I was told also a little bit ago that I knew nothing about running a business nor being responsible enough to know what it was. WOW that was a low blow if you ask me, but everyone is entitled to their own opinions and ideas. I have been back handed and insulted by my own family members for so long I think I may have grown a thicker skin for it but that doesn't mean it doesn't still bother me. I figure it maybe because they are so used to me being the child that they don't see me as an adult and as a responsible person. I was and am very excited that I had gotten published yet I tell (un named source) about it and that I am  working towards becoming an author. What do I get is that's a waste of time, your too old to be changing career goals, or the uhh ok I guess.  I don't expect support from anyone anymore my parents and my boy (nephew) are the only ones that mater and to be frank they always give me all the support I need. Sometimes its sad to see that others don't care, but don't get me wrong I also have support from some family members, the ones I am talking about are closer the ones who you don't expect to be negative. I hope you all know what I mean. Well I am done with my rant so I shall be off. Until the next time.....

Disability

      Some of you know that I have applied for disability like a year ago, I still haven't heard anything. So here is a thought for the universe. IF us as people while we are working have put money into our SSI/disability then why does it take so long. I have been working since I was 18 yrs old I have had several jobs and at times many jobs at once. As many of you out there I worked my ass off till I got hurt and now I am in pain a lot of the time (hence I don't blog that often). Yet disability won't help, I figure I can get a more component doctor once I get some help. But for now I will just pray and hope that it will go through. Well today was a short thought but at least it was a thought next time I will try and be more entertaining.

Public Education....

   I am not one to talk politics or anything that would start a fight. But I was incredibly bothered when my boy came home with a letter from the school saying that they were going to install palm readers to the cafeteria. Why does a school need PALM READERS for? They are wasting money that can be used for the kids or for fixing the class rooms or anything else. I can name a lot of things the school can use the money for instead of palm readers. Then my boy tells me that someone was telling them were going to install metal detectors, video cameras, so far the have some cameras up and working everywhere. It just seems that's way too much I agree that the children need to be safe and secure in school, but lets not go over board with the whole thing. The school can easily get a uniformed guard for security, they can patrol the grounds while the kids are in class and make sure no nutzo gets in. But these other things are not good first they cost way too much money that can go to the kids or even better the teachers. I don't know what the ones in charge are thinking or even if they ARE thinking. Our kids need a good education they don't need to be treated as prisoners, even my boy didn't like it as a joke he told me that next year they were making them all dress in orange uniforms. Of course my boy has a great sense of humor he gave me his best smirk and laughed. But the thought stayed on my mind and I decided to blog about it. What do you all think isn't it going a little too far? I know they are concerned because of what had happen in Connecticut, but why make the kids feel uncomfortable? I feel better airing out my thoughts. Thank you all for listening. Be well and have a great Easter.

My poor Nali....

     A former friend of mine gave me black cat, he is a American Bombay  he is the sweetest cat, very gentle but also a good protector. I have had this black cat since he was 9 months old so he is about 6 or 7 years now, he is a good cat. But today he scared the crap out of me, he usually is very careful when he walks and he balances on the smallest edge, today he FELL off his normal perch and landed on his face and couldn't get back up. Oh man it scared me I had my Dad pick him up and check him he was ok but he was kinda confused. The reason I am talking about this now is because I started thinking what would happen when or if he were to die. I love this cat he is a well trained cat and is so protective and adorable what would I do with out him.  Well I need to go now. Hope you all have a great weekend.

Really me??

   So as you all know I have tendons and nerve issues, I have tried a lot to get better despite what the doctors tell me which is that I have to live with the pain and the minimal use of my rights arm. That is why I took matters into my own hands, I have started exercising more taking extra vitamins and eating more healthy by cutting down on carbohydrates. I read something on the Internet that explained about swelling of the nerves and tendons. It said that certain foods have something in them that causes nerves and tendons to swell and those foods consists of starch. So  I have decided to do the best I can to make myself better, since the doctors are pussyfooting around. This week marks the second week since I got better for my flu and laryngitis, that I have been exercising sadly to say this is the first day that my back and right side are killing. I figured if one or two things or both, I slept wrong, I pinched a nerve or the limited use of my right arm caused the muscles and everything else just to go wonky. So to everyone reading have a great day.

Karate.....

    Well my boy has been in Kenpo Karate for four years already, he does very well I have to say that it also teaches good morals. As in not fighting just to fight, defend yourself when you are attacked, learn to listen, discipline, courage, good manners, well I am sure you get the point. I have taken martial arts as well when I was in high school, college and actually a few years ago. There are so many different forms of karate, all teaching different things all of course with the basic teachings of courage, discipline and good manners ( such as politeness, listing and paying mind to elders etc). Some of the forms of karate are as follows  of course Kenpo (self-defense) , Aikido ( is mainly throws and joint locks), Jeet Kune Do (is mental, spiritual, and physical techniques it was introduce by Bruce Lee), Ju Jitsu (has a lot to do with flexibility and strength), Judo (attack and defensive technique), Kung Fu (is the most powerful form because mixes many styles of fighting together), Tea Kwon Do (Artistic form of self-defense), Tai Chi (is slow movements for self-defense also has a lot of health benefits). Like I said before in College I took Judo and I remember what the teacher told us he said that in Judo you always have to incapacitate your attacker, he told us if someone attacks you make sure they CANNOT get back up. I remember a few moves not a lot I also remember that there was a lot of falling we had to learn to fall so we could take down our assailants. I will admit I did not finish the class, all the falling hurt my back of course I am sure its because I am not a small girl but at least I got something out of it. I also took Tai Chi for a while a few summers ago, I enjoyed it tremendously, it was slow and it helped stretch and move my muscles around, if you have any physical problems I suggest taking Tai Chi its slow and the movement are simple, and it also teaches you self defense. So the last thing I would like to say is if you have a chance to learn some kind of self-defense, Do It! It is a great form of exercise and strengthens muscles that many of us don't use on a daily basis. So to all my readers God Bless and stay moving....


                            

Sucks being Sick

 I have been sick for a month so far, the doctor says I had a combination of strep, the flu, and laryngitis, yet my voice has not come back. I am so unset that I cannot talk, granted I feel better as in my throat doesn't hurt as bad anymore my ears are not that painful and my body stopped being achey, BUT I HAVE NO VOICE!! Granted I am just writing this because I want to complain and vent. You know what else chaps my hyde is that I had a chance go to an audition and of course without  voice I can not. Oh well I guess God had other plans for me. But believe me I get another chance and I will be at any audition. Good luck everyone. Stay sain and stay healthy....

Happy Anniversary

          Today is a special day, my wonderful parents are celebrating their 37th wedding Anniversary. Some of you may think this is a long time, some of you may think not, I am just happy they are still together and here in my life. I am not saying they don't have their troubles which they do but it goes away faster then when it arrives. I think that it helps that my parents tend to talk about everything, when my Father comes home from work even if its after dinner and we all have eaten my Mother still sits with him at the table and they talk about his day or whatever is on his mind. I think this is sweet and every couple no matter how busy should do this. On my Dad's days off they have what I call 'Hunny Time' heck all I know is that sometimes they come home with groceries or they come back after picking up my boy from school, all I know is that's their alone time to talk or just spend time together. My parents actually have two Anniversaries and the other is when they married by church on March of 1999, I was lucky enough to be my Mother's maid-of-honor and my little brother was my Father's's best man. I remember this day, it was fun and the look on my Father's face when he turned to see people in the church pues, whom he did not expect,needless to say he was surprised he had made it clear that no one was to know but the imidiate family. Well unbeknownst to my Dad, my grandmother was so excited that she told the EXTENDED family! So needless to say we had the best reception party ever, well more like BBQ reception at our house, my Uncle and Aunt and various other relatives had gone to the trouble to have food and everything ready, and since I was in on it I expertly cleaned the house intermittently through the week between classes and work and papers due. Either way the day was priceless, the bummer was that we did not record the party but we do have remembrance of the wedding so my Dad can not deny it. haha I think that another thing that keeps my parents so happy and still together LAUGHTER my Dad jokes with my Mom and we all joke around together, not that we are not also serious but we know when to be and when not to be. I kinda sound a but Shakespearean there don't I? Well to end my ranting or bragging whatever I am to say this, if you are meant to be with the one your with that's great make it work, if you are married or are to be married then remember that life brings you ups and downs, you have to work it through and remember always keep laughing and communicate. Peace and God Bless you all....
     HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD!!!!!

Its Valentine's Day

           I don't celebrate Valentine's day like every-other woman in the world, I celebrate it with my family, my parents and my boy. What we do is make a big Peruvian Style meal, sit together and be happy we have one another. I have never really known or understood why couples make such a big deal about it. Even as a child seeing my parents never really was a big deal my parents show their affection all year around not just one day so the Valentine's big shindig is just lost on me. Even when I was dating it never was a big deal, I guess it just another day.
              The one thing about Valentine's Day I do know is that it is my Uncle Tommy Valentin's Birthday and my friend Sandee as well I hope they both have a great birthdays and have loads of fun with family and or friends. I hope to the rest of the world you don't forget the real meaning behind this holiday because of Saint Valentine the patron Saint of LOVE. Love of family, friends, and each other. May you all remember that God is part of each and every one of us and Love is part of him.

Can't Sleep...

I can't sleep tonight I am just not tired, I have been sitting here trying to write more of my book thinking. I want this next book to be a good seller, I know I am not James Patterson but I sure would like his input sometimes. I am determine to make this next book a lot longer then the first. You would think that writing would be simple but it isn't I have always liked writing and as for imagination I have a lot of it. haha I just have so many ideas and getting them down in order is the problem well no not problem but maybe the word is confusing. I just have so many ideas, believe me I think if I can separate and catalog all my thought I can have a whole library of book that I can write. Maybe I will end up doing that maybe this is my calling who know I guess God is the only one who can tell....

Thinking yet Again...

I talked to my grandmother today and she started telling me about my brother and it had me start to think. I don't talk to my brother and sometimes its sad when I see siblings getting along going out and saying that their best friend is that brother or sister. My brother and I can't even be in the same place alone for too long we end up arguing or just straight out fighting. I'm not saying that I am perfect because I am not what I am saying is that it is too bad that my brother and I don't get along like we used to. I can also say that I have a few cousins I also don't get along with like before, they just all took a different route of life then I did. I have to admit that I refuse to change or dumb it down just to be able to get along with them again. I don't know if this is right or wrong but I just needed to let it out, since there really isn't anyone I can express myself to about this. I don't expect any answers I just want to let this go into the wind and see what life brings me. May all be good with you....

Hamlet..

I was just reading a book of Shakespeare's tragedies, I like a lot of his different plays from MacBeth, Romeo and Juliet but one of my all-time favorites is Hamlet. Some may find this play to be odd and confusing. But for me it is interesting I see it as man that is conflicted about his father the King's death and the prompt to manage of his mother the Queen to his uncle. I know this sounds odd but it is Shakespeare, in this book Hamlet sees his father as a ghost therefore driving him crazy. I am not telling you the whole story but believe me when I tell you it is a great story. I have seen Hamlet on stage and in many movies but the best one was when the well known actor Mel Gibson played Hamlet. I have been wanting to see it again but for some reason it's not shown very often on TV. Mel Gibson played Hamlet so well that he made you feel and understand why his character acted did what he did, after seeing that performance I have only preferred to see that version of Hamlet. I am sure that Shakespeare himself would've been proud. So if anyone out there hasn't seen Mel Gibson as Hamlet you are terribly missing out. The movie came out in 1990, so if you have a chance rent it and watch it.

Ancestry line

It's been a couple weeks since I have written on here, I have been investigating my own family tree. My dad's side of the family is easy, my grandmother and great-grandmother filled in all the missing pieces since I was a child. My mother's side is the one I am curious about, I never properly knew my mother's parents.My maternal grandmother died before I was born what I know from her is that she was from Texas. So I decided to look up my mother side of the family I knew minimal information but now I believe I discovered more. My mother is American, her mother was born in Texas by a Texan mother and a Mexican descent father, her father was born in Mexico by an Italian father and native American mother. My mother was surprised to find that her grandfather was from Italy, she knew her grandmother was Native American but could not find the name of the tribe unfortunately neither could I. But I did find that someone out there identified my grandfathers stepmother as his mother, when I told my mother this she was shocked no wonder we could not find more information on my grandfather. Sadly to say I could not find more on my maternal great grandparents, the only thing I know is that both great-grandmothers were Native American. I am glad that at least my mom can say that she is just American, she may have family members that may still reside in Mexico and are truly Mexicans. Neither me nor my mom will be deny that we have family in Mexico, we are now sure of our families line. I have been teased repeatedly by my cousins calling me Mexican which I am not, since my father is from Peru and my mother is American I consider myself Peruvian/American. Now I have proof to correct my cousins, seeing that they are all significantly older than me they may not believe me but frankly I don't care. I'm just glad that I could find something for my mom to know more about her family. Now all that is left is to find out the tribes that both great-grandmothers were from, which I think will be the hardest to find. I hope everyone out there can find or know where their beginnings are. It's always fun to find out!

Just a thought to help...

I was watching a lifetime movie that truly made me mad. The story was about a woman that fell madly in love with a man, it started out like any beautiful romance. He was caring, sweet, kind, everything you can imagine a gentleman to be. Then months go by and the guy becomes jealous, overbearing, and worse of all violent. The girl gets hit, punched, slapped for any reason while the guy idles by with puppy dog eyes begging for her forgiveness. Well as you can imagine it went on until the girl wised up and listen to the people that truly DID care about her. What makes me mad is that some women truly love so much that they become blind to the obvious. I, as a self proclaimed, independent, smart, strong woman has also fallen prey to blind love. I know that sometimes it's hard to admit when you're wrong and you make a mistake about someone but it's even harder when it is someone you care for. What I saw in this movie, when the girl blamed herself for being hit made me think of all the women out there that actually think like that. Just because we're women and men think they are superior doesn't mean they have a right to lay a hand on us. Maybe in the olden times it was okay but not today. So to all the women out there defend yourself if you can't physically then find a way!! Here's another piece of advice if you have a best friend or anyone who tells you they see something not right in your relationship,listen take into consideration what they are telling you. Their concern may be on the right track. Well that is all for today….

One of my hidden talents....

As many of you know or may not, one of my many passions is to write. Many people don't know this but I started writing when I was in my early teens. I started with poetry, short stories, lyrics and ended with full on novels/novelettes. I am the first to say that my writing maybe anything but conventional. You might not believe this but when I started writing my first long story I wanted to write a cute romance or love story. It ended up being a story about a stalker and his prey. That is when I realized that my mind was better set for stories about mysteries, crimes and of course the unnatural. I am not saying I'm a weirdo, but since I have a background in theater and the dramatic arts I have the ability to stretch my imagination through many boundaries. My first book is a book of fiction/mystery, I will admit that a lot of the names in the book were taken from ones that I know yet no one is personally portrayed. Shoot I even put a few ex's in the book granted something might or might not accidentally on purpose happen to them. My point being that I like to write maybe my writing is unconventional but I can guarantee it is interesting. My next book has the same two heroines/investigators/crime solvers, unlike many books I wanted to write a book about women being the tough, stubborn, and aggressively determined without mentioning they are also latina's. I'm still writing I second novel and at the moment I am taking a break to write this blog, who knows when I'll be done but eventually I will. Like I was saying before I have also written poetry, a lot of my poetry are sweet and short some are long and explanatory. I also have poetry that is dark, sad and downright scary. I just found a stack, to fill about three books, of pure poetry in which I read and what I had written about was deep for being so young and innocent. Then others I did remember writing were about my crushes and my growing pains. Back then I was even in love with Jordan Knight from New Kids on the Block and I believe one of the poems was about him, I even found the poem I wrote while looking at my huge Elvis Presley portrait. As weird as you may think that is, yeah I did it! I am not ashamed of what I wrote about or will write about in the future.