P.M.S

       Please Make-it STOP!!! Yeah that's right today I am going to discuss the dreaded CURSE. Now if you are a woman they you may or may not know what I am talking about, if you a man you may NOT want to know. So ladies I know that everyone has different symptoms of the curse so I am going to share mine not that I am special or anything but I honestly think that they are weird. If I am wrong let me know. I woke this morning with bad cramps (normal right), but then my legs were also hurting and my lower back so bad I swear I felt like I was 100 years old. Does anyone else get doubling pain I mean really WHY does this have to happen? I blame Eve I think that because she made the error in judgement to bite that dang apple mother nature and God decided to punish us all. Ok maybe she deserved it but do we?? Maybe I am just being silly, actually I know I'm being silly but today I feel like complaining and that is what I am doing. So to end this blog  I would like to once again say P.M.S = Please Make-it Stop!!! Thank you and may all you that are on the curse get some Midol its great stuff...  haha

Things people say..........

     I am sure someone out there has a family members that make you feel kinda bad. Yeah I have a couple, the funny thing is that they don't see it, they think they are helping. But why don't they see that when they are saying things about oh weight, height, looks, life, knowledge, pretty much everything it's not being helpful but hurtful. I had  someone whom will remain nameless tell me some disturbing things, for example I have been raising my nephew I know I am not his biological mother and he knows this as well, yet he respects me and sees me as a mother well 'some' say that I have no idea what it is to raise a child of my own. Wait I have been raising my nephew so uhh YES I do know, but of course I will not talk back I just stay quiet. Then there was another situation as you may know I ran a family business for a while, well I was told also a little bit ago that I knew nothing about running a business nor being responsible enough to know what it was. WOW that was a low blow if you ask me, but everyone is entitled to their own opinions and ideas. I have been back handed and insulted by my own family members for so long I think I may have grown a thicker skin for it but that doesn't mean it doesn't still bother me. I figure it maybe because they are so used to me being the child that they don't see me as an adult and as a responsible person. I was and am very excited that I had gotten published yet I tell (un named source) about it and that I am  working towards becoming an author. What do I get is that's a waste of time, your too old to be changing career goals, or the uhh ok I guess.  I don't expect support from anyone anymore my parents and my boy (nephew) are the only ones that mater and to be frank they always give me all the support I need. Sometimes its sad to see that others don't care, but don't get me wrong I also have support from some family members, the ones I am talking about are closer the ones who you don't expect to be negative. I hope you all know what I mean. Well I am done with my rant so I shall be off. Until the next time.....

Disability

      Some of you know that I have applied for disability like a year ago, I still haven't heard anything. So here is a thought for the universe. IF us as people while we are working have put money into our SSI/disability then why does it take so long. I have been working since I was 18 yrs old I have had several jobs and at times many jobs at once. As many of you out there I worked my ass off till I got hurt and now I am in pain a lot of the time (hence I don't blog that often). Yet disability won't help, I figure I can get a more component doctor once I get some help. But for now I will just pray and hope that it will go through. Well today was a short thought but at least it was a thought next time I will try and be more entertaining.