Home Movies

My birthday is a few days away, I guess it's making a little family sick especially since I know my grandmother is being thrown  a big birthday party this weekend. It made me sad, not only because it's being held on my birthday but because somehow I remember when we both used to get combined birthday parties. My dad pulled out some old home movies a lot of the movies were of our family parties, which I will have to admit we had a lot of and I'm not just talking 10 people I'm talking over 25 all of whom was mainly family. Some of you may not know but Latino families are huge and will find any excuse to make a party. Maybe that is why I feel like I am missing out, I guess oddly enough this year I feel the distance between California and New Mexico little more than other years. I guess the older I get the more sentimental I feel and truly I wouldn't mind seeing my extended family again. Watching all those people on the video makes me wonder how all those aunts, uncles, cousins, are all doing; knowing that most are now married with children living  their own lines not once  giving a passing thought to me.  Those home videos also brought tears to my eyes when I saw family members that are no longer with us, my great-grandmother, my great aunts, great uncles, uncles, aunts, people that I have learned a lot from, whom I will never forget and I have great memories of. I also miss those days where I wasn't forgotten. I don't think I have cried as much as I have these days watching these home videos and remembering  those carefree days of fun and love of a big, loud, food loving family. Love to all of you out there have a great week.   Till the next time.....