At the time

 


        Since I have been out of work I have been doing alot more it seems. I hvae been despretly trying to get my wrist  and arms better, I have been helping at my nephews school and of course him with homework and stuff. I have been keeping busy It seems that I am more on the go now then before, which is good because then I am not home being depressed.
         When I first got hurt I was very depressed, I was really bad off I was so bad that I wouldn't leave my room nor my house. I would move from my bed to the couch and sit there. Don't get me wrong I would shower but I hated leaving the house especially if I had to have both my arm braces on. I felt like I looked like a mummy. I would be in sweats and sweatshirts all day everyday. Granted it was hard for me to even dress with my limbs so bad, hence sweats. But if anyone out there knows me I really dont like to be limited. So I got depressed!! My mom would force me out of the house for any reason just to get me out of my funk. Luckily I got out of it, now I just make myself do things nomatter if they take forever. I had to learn patience and calmness.
             My arms and wirst and hands may hurt and swell after I try and use them but at least I am tryin now and not just giving up. Although many tell me that I am too young and just need to suck it up,  believe me if it were that easy I WOULD!!! But it those people could feel it when my tendon spasms and the nerves tighten and hurt they wouldn't be able to handle it. But you know what I say to alll those people "Poooo on YOU" I maybe broken for now but I don't plan on forever, IF I am then I will keep dealing with; using my hands and staying positive. Keep it real till next time....

Life goes on...

          Today I woke up early the day was warm and I hadn't slept well. Like a had said before I have issues with my wrists and hands well last night was bad I was in a lot of pain my hands swollen and throbbing. I don't know if I can write much tonight but I can try. Well like I was saying all this bad stuff happen to me at work and even though I complained and complained when I finally got help from workman's comp it was too late and after a year they gave up and told me I was impermanently screwed, well they used the word disabled but heck same thing right? well I will have too write more tomorrow because tonight is no more good night....

LIfe's pains...

    
       What can I say this is the first blog I am writing so feel free to tell me what you think. I guess you will then find out all that's on my mind and believe you me it isn't all that fun... my mind is sooo cluttered!! So here goes....
       I have been out of work for a while now, I ended up leaving work due to an injury and work.  I think that its just unfair that I get hurt and have to stop working, now I can do a few thing that I couldn't before it just takes me longer and well I have to say its not fun yet I try and give all I can everyday. Although I have to say I really miss working and of course the pay check. 
      I gotta tell you, when I was first told that my tendon was messed up and my nerves were also shot on my hands worst on my right it was bad. Then when my right hand wasn't able to move for almost a year that's when I knew. That life was just not gonna be the same. I bet you are wondering how I am typing if I have tendinitis and nerve damage. Its not easy I'm telling ya but its called patience. I have been writing this on and off all day. Now its late and tomorrow you shall get a little more of what I have hidden in my little brain. How scary I'm sharing my thoughts!!! I guess its better then paying a therapist!!! Chat ya up later...