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        Since I have been out of work I have been doing alot more it seems. I hvae been despretly trying to get my wrist  and arms better, I have been helping at my nephews school and of course him with homework and stuff. I have been keeping busy It seems that I am more on the go now then before, which is good because then I am not home being depressed.
         When I first got hurt I was very depressed, I was really bad off I was so bad that I wouldn't leave my room nor my house. I would move from my bed to the couch and sit there. Don't get me wrong I would shower but I hated leaving the house especially if I had to have both my arm braces on. I felt like I looked like a mummy. I would be in sweats and sweatshirts all day everyday. Granted it was hard for me to even dress with my limbs so bad, hence sweats. But if anyone out there knows me I really dont like to be limited. So I got depressed!! My mom would force me out of the house for any reason just to get me out of my funk. Luckily I got out of it, now I just make myself do things nomatter if they take forever. I had to learn patience and calmness.
             My arms and wirst and hands may hurt and swell after I try and use them but at least I am tryin now and not just giving up. Although many tell me that I am too young and just need to suck it up,  believe me if it were that easy I WOULD!!! But it those people could feel it when my tendon spasms and the nerves tighten and hurt they wouldn't be able to handle it. But you know what I say to alll those people "Poooo on YOU" I maybe broken for now but I don't plan on forever, IF I am then I will keep dealing with; using my hands and staying positive. Keep it real till next time....